What I have to say tonight is mearly a realization at how much the good Lord has been telling me to kick it in gear and get serious about decorating cakes.
A month ago, maybe even two months ago the sermon at Church was about how fear is the opposite of faith. I walked away with a fresh attitude towards my faith. It wasn't clear at the time what I was fearful of, and honestly didn't become clear until just recently. All I knew was that I had been impacted and knew that one day the new information and scripture I had heard would come in handy.
On Christmas Eve I was not able to sleep, I felt like a little child anticipating the arrival of Santa Clause. No matter what I did I could not sleep, so after fighting it for a few hours I finished my current novel that I had been reading and still I was awake. I finally got up, tired of lying in bed wide awake, and pulled out all my decorating supplies. For the next 4 hours, I played in frosting attempting to create wonderful works of art on my practice board.
As I finally get tired, I realize that I have put off my dream of being a cake decorator for the past two years. Making excuses for not practicing left and right. When telling a friend (Latasha Haynes of Latasha Haynes Photography, check out her blog/ work at http://www.photomelatashablog.com) about my Christmas Eve she gave me kind encouraging words and told me of her own day of realization. In just one year she has made her dream a reality, starting with very little and creating a business from the ground up all with the grace of God and the love and support of her friends and family. Now I know that photography and cake decorating is entirely two different things. However, she provided the mental jolt I needed to open my eyes and realize that everyone has to start somewhere for their dreams to become a reality.
It was then that I decided that I needed to start following my dreams and kick it into gear and what better time then the present to do just that. It was then that I set a goal for myself and my 2011 New Years resolution. With all this I knew that God has been whispering in my ear telling me I need to pick up my piping bag, and follow my dreams but that I need to rely on Him to guide the way. Don't get me wrong I knew this all along, but my New Years adventure reaffirmed this as I forgot to put him first and my cake was not a smooth process.
Well tonight I was a little down on myself, struggling with the fact that I have no money to purchase new equipment with and I have all these big ideas that frankly I won't be able to try out until I can start bringing in a revenue to pay for this dream. Honestly, I should really perfect my other skills first and not get a head of myself. Deep down I know that this is God once again keeping me in check and I appreciate that. After all He created our timeline and only He has the book that contains it. We all just have to go with the flow of it and know that He will only do things that make us stronger.
So while checking my facebook I was reminded of the sermon a while back about fear being the opposite of faith by Isaiah Haynes (the other half of Latasha Haynes Photography) in his note ( http://www.facebook.com/#!/notes/latasha-haynes-photography/just-a-lil-something-i-wanted-to-share/485778681558) to the followers of their website. Now hearing the same words just a few short months apart, by two different people with no connection to each other really got me thinking "what am I afraid of"?
I am afraid that I will never be good enough to sell my cakes and will never graduate to more challenging cakes like the ones I am in awe of. Those cakes that make it into magazines, are at the fancy weddings across the United States and are entered into contests on the food network or TLC. Multiple tiers, with fancy piping, amazing colors, and the potential for special effects. So yeah, I am afraid of failure, but I know and have to remember Philippians 4:13 " For ALL all things are possible through Christ" and trust that my dreams are in line with Christ's plan for my life.
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